what do you do when everything in life walks away? You feel like you can’t breath can’t sleep and can’t function anymore.. I don’t what to do… I feel like my purpose for being has disappear.. What left do I have to live for.. I don’t know what to do with myself.. I don’t know who to be.. I don’t know who I am.. I have no purpose.. Why did he leave.. Because I made him.. Because I made him go.. I threw all his shit out and hurt him beyond belief.. And yet all I wanted was for him to fight for me.. To grab me and tell me that he just loves me and wants only me.. I wanted him to tell me no matter how stupid I behave or yell or scream.. He wants me to be his wifey.. I wanted to grab me and kiss me like there was no tommoroow …. Like the sun wouldn’t rise.. I wanted him to make love to me all night.. And wisper in my ear “I love you”… I wanted to feel every part of his body on mine.. I wanted my vien to pulse from the way he would tough and pull me closer.. I love him… I wanted him to marry  me….to ask me to be his forever till the end of time.. Even when we passon.. We would still be togther.. And thoug time may be hard and we may fight because we are both strong people.. That we are meant to be.. That nothing coulld separte us.. God put us both on earth to find each other.. NOW… He is gone I pushed him out and you just don’t know what do to.. I try to go through life I’m pushing forward.. But I will never be myself without him.. I feel like my stupid favorite book. The second one.. New moon.. When my favorite romantic charatcers of my time.. My jomeo and juliet… Break apart.. Niether could live without the othe other.. Life was purposeless.. And that is how I feel…